I have too many fucking ambient albums and it's pissing me off.

Hiroshi yoshimura doesn't really calm me down at all. I don't really know how to explain it. I just think it sounds strange when you package the acoustics of nature into a little wind-up box.

To me, ambience should take advantange of quiet chaos; always exploring new sounds, but never showing anything off. There is no beginning and there is no end, there's just this infinite middleness. You just get swallowed up by this overwhelming presence, but it feels nice, so you don't feel like opening your eyes anytime soon.

Anyways, this soundscape feels a little too uncanny-value to me. There's just a lot of ringing notes that take up way too much mental space. It's trying to be a lotta things but it's not hitting any of em for me. Not one of my favorites.

One of my favorite artificial soundscape pieces is William Basinski's Disintengration Loops. I usually play it in the background when I'm trying to nap but maybe I don't really need to but it'd be nice to? It feels like I'm just in this continuous death loop and everything's crumbling away but really, I don't feel anxious at all. Which is weird cause I feel anxious all the time but it's like a dull, throbbing sort of anxiousness that you never really notice but then you look back on and say 'wow that really sucked why did I do that'. Basically, the feeling is a physical process given form. It doesn't really get any purer than that. You can hear the lifespan of some thing slowly dying away. Like a snail, slowly getting stepped on. All of its juices just sloooooowly oozing out, like if you squeezed fuckin jell-o right through your clammy-ass hands.


If 9/11 was a heart attack, disintegration loops is early-onset arthritus (btw I only ever listened to dlp 1.1 I'm a fraud).

One day I'll get to gushing about Brian Eno and Steve Reich, but only once I have a crank at everything in their discographies. Also, I need more research on japanese indie artists like World's End Girlfriend and Kashiwa Daisuke. Like, where did their styles come from?? I know vaguely about how influencial krautrock was in developing western electronic sensibilities: Roedelius, Eno and Kraftwerk in particular.

I drew picture above while listening to Sakamoto Ryuichi. Don't know how I feel about him yet. Anyways, it's halloween! It's also depressingly wet outside! Soggy candy! yayyyyyyyyyyy